2008 for all intensive purposes was a good year! There is no perfect year, and there are always good and bad things, for we are not all one or the other. In the midst of me continuing to seek after God, stumbling, and moving forward, I have learned a lot of things. 2008 was my year or reaping and restoration...a new beginning indeed.
A lot of times people talk about how terrible the last year was, how they're throwing things away, cleaning out closets, closing people out their lives, etc. etc dot dot dot...but as for me, it's different.
I feel that I have become more mature, I've written a lot this year, and I have been doing some soul searching, if you will...trying to discover the inner me, and the heart of God in the process. I have begun to embrace who I am, and who I am not...and dare I not say, I am taking the steps to embracing who I will probably never be...and I'm all good with that.
I am comfortable, but not complacent....I am imperfect, but not impure. (that was a little poetic, huh..lol) ...naw, but seriously. I am no where near complete by the world's standards, but I am complete...by the way God views me. So many times we view our inadequacies, based on what we have and don't have, who we are, who we are not, who we know, who we don't know, who we are with, etc, and that's how we govern wholeness...that's one thing I did do in 2008...despite the newness of the year, that I will not do in 2009...A friend on myspace...yes myspace, posted a scripture based on the theme of James 1:4...and it read: "And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."...obviously the writer of this scripture knows that it is impossible to be perfect, complete and lacking in nothing on this earth, but because of Christ having walked this earth, and having given us salvation, he has made us whole, and so long as the earth views us as imperfect, wanting, and lacking, we are made whole, perfect and complete in Him....and I wrote a song off of this called "you see who I am"....though I am a sinner, imperfect, and sometimes vile, you see me perfectly...tho i have impure thoughts and actions, YOu see me as pure...because You see my heart....though I want for everything, You supply everything that I need...Awesome.
So as I go in to 2009...my theme is, though ironic to many, "Perfect, complete, and lacking nothing."....that is how I will govern my life this year and forever...I will take advantage of the open door, and of course I will seek the Lord for a deeper relationship...I will not live my life according to a schedule, and I will let the Lord deal with me according to His schedule....I will not try to please everyone, but I will try to show compassion to all....I'm going to try to be the best person that I can be for my family, for my friends and loved ones, for my God, and for me.
2009 is going to be a laid back year for me....and I am excited to see where a little faith and openness goes.....peace!
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