Making it count...

What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
- Langston Hughes
"A Dream Deffered"


Since I was a child I always had this yearning, desire, and innate expecation for something bigger, something better, visons of me doing things that many others don't get the opporutnity to do. As I grew older, I took a lot of those dreams and aspirations and burried them...even though the presence of those burried dreams provided constant reminders of what I had hoped for.

When you go to college, I believe that there are three things that happens to you. Some of follow our dreams, some of us learn to dream 'rationally', and some of us forget the dreams as irrational childhood fantasies. As a recent graduate, I realized that those dreams didn't rest in peace, but rather returned with vigor, and the desire for something golden, something that makes life count, has returned with a vengeance.

I made a plan of what I wanted to accomplish in life, but most of these were things that I knew I COULD accomplish, things that required sacrifice, but wasn't as much as a gamble as some of the other things I've always wanted to do with my life. So I'm starting to revamp "The Plan." I have the rest of my life to be a professor, and though building a school is one of my biggest dreams, I know that I will achieve that in due time....what I cannot forgive myself for is the fact that I didn't even TRY to go for the things I so desparately wanted...the Goldeness thatwas promised to me long ago.....and to sacrifice my dreams for eternal pain and disappointment with self is something that I can't live for...and neither should anyone. There are many of you with fesh business plans, crazy ideas, hopes, talents, album concepts, and goals...go for it.

So, today, I ask, what is it that you've been putting off? What is it that you've given up? What is that thought that follows you through every phase of life, that dream that keeps knocking, that feeling in your gut that comes with every thought of it? I urge you, not ot give up on it....at least until you try....because I am confident that fulfillment will come with even the journey of trying.....I'm going to take my own advice and do the same.....living life like it's golden and making it count.

PEACE